it's just a cold

I'm off to the doctor's office this afternoon. I'm hoping for some sort of inhaler-type thing as the biggest problem is breathing in this heat and humidity. I'm only at work right now because of the air conditioning. Though I was on the futon last night, I still didn't sleep very well between the coughing and the sweating. Given that we're looking at the hottest days of the year I don't have much choice but to rely on the kindness of friends with air. I hate that. HATE IT. So, as of right now, my afternoon looks like this:

Drive home
Collect laundry
Drop laundry off at Saint-of-a-Woman
Head to grocery store in search of food that requires zero cooking but is still tasty to stop me from continuing the trend of going out in search of cooler temperatures.
Drop off groceries
Doctor's appointment
Please God let me be headed to Walgreens for a prescription
Back to the library to either pick up generous friend who is lending me her car or to sit in the library until 5pm when she is finished

Right now lunch is lacking.
As is a much needed nap.

I'm miserable all around. I spend alot of time trying not to panic about my shallow breathing which leads to me panicking about my shallow breathing which leads to me taking a cold shower and sobbing which usually does the trick long enough for me to calm down.

I can't even think about the middle east. Qana makes me physically ill. Seeing Condi Rice on tv makes me physically ill. Hearing that G.W.B. described the situation like this on his radio address Saturday:

"This moment of conflict in the Middle East is painful and tragic," Bush said in his radio address Saturday. "Yet it is also a moment of opportunity for broader change in the region. Transforming countries that have suffered decades of tyranny and violence is difficult, and it will take time to achieve. But the consequences will be profound for our country and the world." (my emphasis)

makes me physically ill.

And my body can't take it right now.
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